I love to snack. Yeah, that explains my size. I have a sweet tooth, sweeter than yours.
Love yourself before you take the milestone in Committing to somebody else.
Always think of what you have then what you don't have.
Beautifully Imperfect
Saturday, December 17, 2011
I'm moving to a better place to start a new me. Moving as in moving from blogspot to the other. Hopefully going into the new me will make my future brighter. *breathe deeply*
5:37 PM
Thursday, August 18, 2011
I'm not sure. Liking someone, is it wrong? Why do I get hurt every single time I like somebody? Don't I have the rights to like somebody? It's not even the start yet and I'm already hurting. It's hurts...it hurts alot.. Domu appo. Domu domo appo. Wae andwaeyo?
2:10 AM
Wednesday, July 13, 2011 Alright, let me get to it straight no hitting around the bush alright. Things change when I become the President. Ok fine. I admit to that. But YOU are the one who encouraged me to become the president and you will support and I will have your back if anything happens. But those words are crap. It mean nothing. Its just words. No action. AT ALL.
Now, it seems like its all my fault. My wrong doing. I don't know. Am i the only 1 affected by the changes in our relationship? It seemed it is. Ouh I forgot, you have YOUR boyfriend by your side. Dear bestfriend, you are not my BESTfriend anymore. Where are you when the world crushing me down. Why can't you make any effort. I'm making effort as I tried to smile and talk to you when i meet you. But all I get was you Fucked up face. Look, am I the only 1 who cares about our relationship? 10 years has been to waste. its always been me who go to you. Do you forget what i did for you. many good things. I admit you too. But Atleast I'm trying to make things work for us despite my fucked schedule and my own self.
Since you are 'free' of any position and can move around freely, why don't YOU make the effort to go to me and ask whether if I'm ok. YOU make me cry and I have no one to share my story as I don't want to make you look bad infront of humans. Even in this situations I still protect you and care for you while you doesn't.
THIS IS MY FUCKING PERCEPTION.
Even the guys don't stand on my side. I know you are closer to them than I am. But they still don't see me as a trustworthy. I tried to tell them about our problem instead I get blame. I think I'm too kind to people. I make people my first priority while they make me as their option. I'm not gonna be like that ANYMORE. I guess I destroy most of my time in my life. Even being a president make me a person who I don't wanna be. But I think Its worth it.
It makes me stronger. I'm not like those who are stronger behind those screens. I'm gonna say it right here and right now. I'm not gonna care about it anymore since I'm the only one who is making the effort.
BESTIE, if you really care about our relationship and all the moments that we shared together, things have been better of you take initiative and come to me as MY BESTFRIEND.
Tuesday, July 5, 2011 Its been long since i update my blog. To think about it, I just don't feel talking about it. Too many to say. I have issues. Its small but its growing bigger. Same ol' thing.
I just need to have a time out and and take a breather. I don't know why I'm stressing out. I just keep thinking. Why I keep whining and feel bad about those issues instead of solving it. Then again, how do i solve it?
Right now my heart is close for trust. After things happened I realise that I can never trust anyone. I can't trust no one. NOBODY.period. Thanks to those who open up to me. but I do have my doubt. Growing up is never easy for me. The biggest issue for me right now is that I have doubts and can never trust anyone at the moment.
I realise that i'm alone when I'm going through too many rough patches during the early of this year. No one was by my side except my family. but No one understand what i was facing. No one sees. When the world is crushing me down, I look around and it feels like you are walking past a ghost town. 2011 is not the year for me. Its a freaking tough year for me.
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Birthday is a simple one but still meaningful. Teared up while reading all the birthday wishes. I think I neglect the world long enough to realise that people still love me.
Been saying many times that I need to have a life. All my friends are attached. Daus recently attach to kayshenee. Happy for him. Now left me. I need to socialise. But do i really have time to date? I want to date. I want to watch movies and eat dinner with my date. the only thing is, will my date want to date me. hmmm....
11:50 PM
Friday, June 10, 2011
I'm seriously in my Lazy mood. i don't feel like studying when my semester test is next week. i don't feel excited for my birthday and my birthday falls on the first day of test. i don't feel like going out even I want to go out and have fun. What else?
I don't know I'm a demanding person but I just wanna have fun. I am full with stress and pressure. I want to shop my mum say its enough. its been months since I went shopping. I want a long board for my birthday. I got my dream shoes from my parents and i thanked them for that.
My parents and I, is what a bitter-sweet relationship feels like. They are young and we always stand for our individual opinion without realizing that one of us has to gives in. Even the status is forgotten. I know I should be grateful but sometimes money and nagging is not the only thing we need. We need to spulrge on family times and have fun together.
As I'm growing up, I'm feeling the tense in my family. Everyone is busy with their own things. Being a grown up is not easy after all. You began to realize that fairytale does not exist in the real world. 12:01 AM
Thursday, June 9, 2011
You know what, people seriously failed to see the wonders of life. Occasionally, me too. I wonder why people turn the tables and play the victim and blame on others when clearly it was them who start the fire.
Its time to depend on your self and stop relying on people; in the end of the day people just care about themselves.
Humans, they only brave and shine behind those screen but an innocent and harmless creature in reality. PRETENDERS.
I'm not sure by saying this but I mean it. Please correct yourself before you judge people. Everyone makes mistakes. Repent. If everyone were to think like this, wouldn't Earth is the peaceful place to live in.
Saying things about people till you don't realise that those factors you list down is describing yourself.
